Monday, 4 August 2014 .
Lots of things go through my mind. Thoughts, schemes, plots.. many chances I could do something, I even had connections for that purpose(not going to elaborate on that).. But what stopped me everytime is the fear of doing something bad that could affect people's lives. Lives that I actually STILL care about and those that don't know about me(its unfair for them).I am bad. But I just don't want to be so bad to purposely sabotage things. That shouldn't be me. And it goes against many principles, and of course my beliefs.
I should be my old self and don't think too much and too hard. I should heed advice from good analysts friends to just "don't care and do nothing" since things will eventually go bad and go in the direction I wanted to be :) which is what I had known since I've analysed the situation myself.
I guess I'll just throw all those thoughts somewhere else first..
I'm too impatient.. Just wait awhile & things will definitely turn out the way I wished. I don't even need any effort, awesome.
I think I shouldn't be too nice to certain people that aren't worth it anymore.
Cheers to you. 01:56;
A dream can only remain just a dream..